New verse by a Wellington writer who has become the world’s most famous New Zealand author, Ashleigh Young.
Ghost Bear
On flying ant day, Elliot took me to the glowing sign
outside Kenneth Williams’ apartment. We stared at it
for the necessary long while. Kenneth Williams
said he hated everyone and everything, especially, but especially
Peter Pan. He died on April 15, 1988. The day before that
he wrote in his diary “Oh –
what’s the bloody point?”
*
In my town people would sometimes lie down
on the railway tracks, because that
was a good joke
*
One of Elliot’s friends had a terrible argument with his elderly father
who had to go into a home, and later said to Elliot: “It’s a necessary part
of the ritual, a bit like them Peruvian drug ordeals, where you go
into the forest and get attacked by a ghost bear
with a skull for a head that represents your inner child: horrible
but how can you be sure your love is strong
enough unless you’ve tested it against a ghost
bear with a skull head?”
*
Elliot paused to extract a flying ant from my ear
as a smiling panhandler visited us, holding his hat over his thighs
as if about to sing, when the ants were visited upon him
*
a boy in my class climbed up on an overhead bridge
and was electrocuted
but he lived, and a few months later
scored a try on the rugby field
and a boy standing beside me said “He’s just showing off
because he got electrocuted”
*
a family man once asked me “Do you think of me as your teacher
or as a friend” and with the skull head of a bear
leaned in to kiss me, as per the necessary
part of the ritual
*
When there are two frail old women together, there is always one
who is visibly stronger.
I have an old friend and I think about whether we will be old together
and which of us will be stronger, holding up the other
and which of us the wind will push over first
for a good joke
*
Two years after flying ant day Elliot stood on the basement steps
of his great grandmother’s house in Bramley Fall Woods
and there was no house left, only the steps, hidden under cold leaves
going up and up into the forest
Ashleigh Young, 2017