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The many faces of the Hero Parade. (Image Design: Tina Tiller)
The many faces of the Hero Parade. (Image Design: Tina Tiller)

SocietySeptember 4, 2022

Nothing’s going to stop us: An oral history of the Hero Parade

The many faces of the Hero Parade. (Image Design: Tina Tiller)
The many faces of the Hero Parade. (Image Design: Tina Tiller)

Those who were there look back at the queer pride party that defined the 90s.

The Hero Parade was Auckland’s largest and most prominent event celebrating queer pride and, during its 1992-2001 run, the centrepiece of the now defunct Hero Festival. It was part of an international tradition of gay pride parades, beginning with events in New York and Chicago following the Stonewall uprising of 1969. Since the Hero Parade, both Auckland Pride Festival’s Pride Walk and Rainbow Auckland’s Pride Parade have followed in its footsteps.

On the 50th anniversary of the founding of Aotearoa’s Gay Liberation Front, we’re publishing four oral histories of core Pride events, including the founding of the GLF, the re-launch of the Pride Parade, and the creation of the Pride Walk. The Hero Parade sits squarely in the centre of these events – a celebration of community, a commemoration of history, and a loud and proud expression of queer defiance.

The late 80s and early 90s was a period of upheaval for the queer community in Aotearoa, as it was for queer people across the world. The Hero Parade wasn’t just marching under the spectre of Aids, but into a country less than a decade out from the Homosexual Law Reform Bill of 1986.

Paul Rose, activist and journalist: If you look at what happened in the mid 80s and into the mid 90s with Aids, it’s horrifying. Kids these days, they always brush it off. It’s like, “Thank you, but it’s not really that important.” In fact, an entire generation of mainly creative people were wiped out. If you look at places like America, like New York and California, the people who were dying of Aids there were graphic designers, musicians, authors, florists. They worked in creative industries. 

Nicola Legat, journalist at Metro magazine in the ’90s: Hero landed in the middle of a kind of political moment where it looked as though Auckland was going to become run by people with a very strict moral code that they were going to impose on everybody else. And so in a way… it’s the kind of thing that’s happening right at the moment in the United States. We had that moment in Auckland in the mid- to late-1990s.

Rex Halliday, organiser of the first Hero Parade: We had run quite a hard-hitting Aids prevention programme in 1990, saying, “This is dangerous. It can kill you, it’s a really nasty way to go.” Because it was, then. “It’s killing lots of people and you need to stay safe and you’ve got to wear condoms.” 

People needed a strong sense of self-esteem and a strong sense of community. We thought: What can we do to build up in the Auckland gay community a real strong sense of community, and a sense of being proud of who we are? 

I had a group of volunteers. We sat talking about it and we came up with the idea of having a celebratory party. We definitely didn’t want to do a sleazy party. We wanted to do something that actually celebrated and praised who we were as gay people. 

Michael Stevens, participant and former Aids Foundation employee: I think what made the Hero Parade was that it was our gift back to the straights, and we were having fun. There were politics involved in it, but there was an awful lot of just celebration and that over the top camp, “let’s send up the world” attitude going on with it, too. 

RH: Someone suggested the idea of a hero, and we all thought of Arnold Schwarzenegger, a person with big guns, killing people. That was the idea that had been sold to us as a hero. 

But I said, “No, that’s not what a hero is. No, a hero is a person who actually is able to stand up with their own truth no matter what is against that.”

The first thing we did was a big party in 1991. It was targeted at gay men, but some lesbians came and helped us in the whole development, which was just a fantastic show of community as well. That was a huge success, but there was a lot of opposition to our doing that. A lot of people with me thought, “No, you’re wasting a whole lot of money.” 

I said, “No, we’ll make money on this,” and we did. 

Every volunteer who did anything gave their services and their time and their effort… they gave it all for free. And that was just extraordinary. The community came together so much.

During the 1997 Hero Parade. (Photo: Auckland Library / Julia Durkin)

The Hero Parade was a procession of floats – walking and vehicular, from both community and corporate groups – held in February, a few weeks before the Sydney Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras. Around the world, Pride is traditionally celebrated in the month of June to coincide with the anniversary of the Stonewall uprising. Auckland’s inaugural Hero Parade took place in 1992.

RH: The Hero thing, Hero Parades and parties, was a huge celebration of, “We are here, we’re queer, and we’re not going to go away. Nothing is going to stop us now. We are here.” That’s what it felt like. It was empowering. Hero parades were empowering.

I remember on the night of that party – it was in an old railway shed down on the railway yards – I remember standing up above it and watching this group of people dancing and having this wonderful time, and just having tears of pride at these people who were my community. I just felt so proud of them. 

The idea was: a hero is someone who can stand up for your own truths. To not let other people’s negativity affect you badly. To care for others, and to live safely, to deal with the difficult exigencies of existence well, like Aids at that time.

The parade became an annual event, and because this was New Zealand in the 90s, not everybody was on board.

RH: Les Mills was the mayor of Auckland at the time, and he was a good, conservative Christian. He had issues with it. He tried to pretend that he didn’t because his gym, of course, had so many gay people. He didn’t want to get anyone’s back up. But it was a fight.

MS: Metro magazine funded a float that was a caricature of Les Mills’ face to go down the street, so you had that kind of political content going in as well. You had Metro magazine going, “Fuck the mayor. Let’s do something. Let’s pay to build a big paper mache model of him that makes him look like an idiot.” And they did. 

In 1996, the Hero Parade moved from its traditional Queen Street home to Ponsonby Road, where the relaunched Pride Parade would later be held.

MS: In terms of visibility and place, having us in the middle of the city is a good thing, and it shows where we should be. Hero was different from the Pride marches in that it was more anarchic, I would say. Hero had lots of different little community pieces happening within that parade. So, different groups would say, “I want to do this in the Hero parade,” and you’d get some absolutely bizarre and wonderful creations happening. It was an incredible time.

I think that we did deserve to be [on Queen St] smack bang in the middle of the city, like so many other parades have been, so I made that view quite clear. I did find out later there are practical things to consider, and that taking a parade along a flat stretch of road, like Ponsonby Road, is much easier than having trucks having to brake all the time, going down Queen Street, which I’d never ever thought of.

Nicola Legat: Ponsonby Road turned out to be its natural home. A lot of the fire had gone out of it. Everyone just accepted that Hero’s here. If you don’t like it, don’t go on Ponsonby Road, but it’s here.

MS: Some of the floats were quite amateur, and you’d cheer and clap politely, and some of them, you would just go, “Fuck me. How did they think up that?” 

Wayne Otter, who was at the Aids Foundation for a long time, did an absolutely stunning, but quite small, entry into one of the Hero Parades where she was dressed like some sort of fantasy Roman warrior goddess in a chariot being pulled by these semi-naked Legionnaires, and it was absolutely stunning. It had nothing to do with anything else except going, “Wow, that looks fabulous.”

The 1998 parade almost didn’t go ahead after the council’s City Promotions Committee declined a request for funding. Then an unlikely saviour emerged.

Bill Ralston, editor of Metro 1997-2000: It’s very simple. Metro was a magazine focused on Auckland, and I thought the council withdrawal of the [parade] cleanup money was outrageous. When you’ve got a media outlet that focuses on the wellbeing of the city, the health of the city, the enjoyment of the city, it’s important to actually put your money where your mouth is.

We only had $15K in our whole marketing budget. When you consider the number of people who come out, not only to take part in Hero, but just to watch along Ponsonby Road – a lot of them would be our readers and probably would think it was a good idea, so we gave the money to Hero so they could stage the parade.  Metro took what we called a “corporate box” at a restaurant on Ponsonby Road, which we could invite our advertisers to, and they came in droves.

The most embarrassing thing was, at the front of the march, there were a lot of scantly-clad men wearing masks of my face leading the march. And that was almost as embarrassing as being declared “gay man of the year” at the Hero Awards afterwards. [Bill Ralston is straight.]

The 1998 event remains the best-known Hero Parade, in large part for that image of participants wearing Bill Ralston masks. The parade in its entirety is available to watch on NZ on Screen.



 

Colin Mathura-Jeffree, television presenter and Hero legend: The Hero Parade in 1998 was called Gods and Monsters. They had this wild idea of planets, deities, devils and every wild pagan legend in between. They’d created a huge blue lotus flower that would rise, float over the crowds, 20 feet in the air, and they needed a Hindu goddess in the centre of it. So someone in Auckland Council working with Hero threw my name in the ring.

They called my mother, Rosalie – not my NZ agency at the time – and my mum loved the idea. She knew I was going to have lunch with the Maharani of Udaipur – the Rajput queen – and phoned to tell me. I was apprehensive about the idea but she said, “This is a moment for people who need to see someone like you, so open and carefree about who you are. It will change their life.” Her words excited me. I asked the Maharani, would being a goddess offend? And she smiled and said such honour comes only from Shri Lakshmi.  Two days later I was in Auckland.

After the heyday of the late 90s, Hero fell on hard times. The Auckland City Promotions Committee voted against funding the parade, and while a complaint to the Human Rights Commission was made, the commission said there was “no evidence of discrimination” in the decision. The 2000 parade was cancelled due to lack of financial backing, and the 2001 parade was to be the last.

New Zealand Herald, 27 August 2002: The showpiece of Auckland’s gay and lesbian community in February all but died last night when the Hero Incorporated Society was wound up. The society, which was debt-free, owned the intellectual property rights to the Hero Parade which would now revert to the Hero Charitable Trust, said society chairwoman Ann Speir. The trust debt is believed to be more than $140,000, and Ms Speir, who is also a trust member, said the trustees were still debating its future.”

Paul Rose:  There were six of us who came together to rescue Hero. The Hero brand managers, we were called, and we managed to produce an offer that actually wound the trust up. I think we ended up paying nine cents in the dollar to the Hero creditors, and there were lots of them.

NL: The kind of clashes that there were between what people thought Hero should be, the clashes over funding, that kind of stuff. It became more sort of granular and event-focused in a way.

MS:  The Hero Parades were festive. From my memory, they had very little corporate influence anywhere or visibility.

CMJ: Hero meant a lot to me. My mum was right – people said seeing me on television did have a wonderful positive effect. But for me I did it especially for those career game changers I met at the beginning of my model life who died of Aids. I stood up in that beautiful lotus flower with their names in my heart and their faces on my mind, while the intense rain and wind blasted me, laughing joyously as I attempted to throw rose petals into the roaring cheering masses of people, while my sari totally unraveled and fell off. 

I celebrated the heroes that were game changers to me.

RH: There was opposition, but there was much more enthusiasm, not only from the gay community, but from the public as a whole, people just loved it. They loved the joy, the unity, the expressions of it. Over those few years, I had so many young gay men and women come up to me and say, “This has been the thing that made my coming out possible. Hero inspired me to accept who I was.”

Illustration: Austin Milne
Illustration: Austin Milne

The Sunday EssaySeptember 4, 2022

The Sunday Essay: Letter from Dadland

Illustration: Austin Milne
Illustration: Austin Milne

It’s beautiful, bewitching and sometimes quite boring and, three years into fatherhood, John Summers is still learning how to be there. 

The Sunday Essay is made possible thanks to the support of Creative New Zealand.

Illustrations by Austin Milne.

I have been a father for a long time now. Driving station wagons, spending too long on the toilet, and often pondering, aloud, whether the lawn needs a mow. The only thing missing then were actual children and this we rectified three years ago when our first son was born. The second arrived last November. Why so late, it’s fair to ask, for someone who’d been in training for so long? There’s no good answer except the usual one: terror. The fear of discovering life drastically changed with no going back, and many of the things that seemed important suddenly of reach. No time to go to the movies or linger in bookshops. No time to drink beer and sleep late. All of which came true, but it turns out I really just don’t mind.

It’s as if those were the thoughts of another person, or from an age now long gone. I may as well bemoan missing tag or trading cards. This is a different life with different priorities and that is no bad thing. It’s also a life I had vowed not to write about. So much is written about parenthood, often about the extremes of love and emotion that make all the difficult things worthwhile. The risk it seemed to me would be to turn up and reheat these themes, saying what everyone else does. But here I am already on my third outing now on the subject. It has proven irresistible because, if I’m honest, I have very little else to say. My days are dominated by those two funny little men, their ways of seeing and speaking (“I can’t know,” my eldest says when I ask him a tricky question). I find myself brushing my teeth with Minions toothpaste. I hurry home from work to help with mealtime and bedtime, and then clean up their aftermath, scraping pumpkin out of the highchair, hurrying still so I might enjoy an hour or two of non-parenting time. Even the shape of this free time is their work too, its boundaries dictated by them. I understand now that the subject of parenthood is not an impulse but a necessity. Don’t talk to a sailor if you don’t want to hear about the sea.

And so, please indulge me for a moment while I tell you about my two boys. Glamorous figures to me, both of them, with their mother’s dark brown eyes. They are in the 95th percentile for eyebrows, and these brows give every expression an emphasis. They are exclamation marks they wear. Their smiles are children’s smiles, which is to say they radiate and involve every part of the face. Life is not all smiles of course. A while back I was talking to someone when the subject of parenthood came up and I told her I enjoyed it. “But it’s boring sometimes too,” she said more than once, intent that I admit it. I will admit it. It is boring pretty often actually. There are limits to the enjoyment I can take from Duplo or traipsing around Te Papa on a rainy day. And then there is the laundry, the endless laundry. We have a washhouse at the bottom of a steep flight of stairs, which we stomp up and down nightly, Sisyphus with a basket of undies.

Our days begin very early. Often, they start with a hoot. The current routine is that our three-year old lets us know he’s awake by pretending to be an owl. A soft “Hoo-hoo” comes from behind his door. I wake to this sound, and follow it down the hall. I stand outside and listen for a moment before stepping in to find him already dressed and hiding under the covers.  

           I heard a little owl,” I say. “Did you hear it?”

           What did it say?”

           Hoo-hoo.”

He gives me one of those giant smiles, one that shows that, in the very same moment, he loves that I’ve been fooled and he knows that I’m not. It is a realm of understanding I cannot share. It belongs to children only. My luck though is to be there to witness it.

I’ve left something out there. The very first thing he says when I walk into the room is that he wants Mum, not Dad. I ignore it and we talk about the owl, but I know I’ll be asked again tomorrow. I don’t want to essentialise – this is just our story, but it is one where he crawls into his mother’s arms in a way he won’t with me. Competition is one reason for this. He has a little brother who gets a lot of his mum’s attention and so he is eager to even things out. Still it can be tricky, it adds to the many things I must figure out as I go. That picture of dadhood I begin with, the station wagon and lawn mowing, doesn’t really take me that far, and much of the day is spent responding to things, finding the words to share what I know while leaving space for them to discover the world themselves. I spent a morning drawing pipes in an attempt to explain what happens when you pull the plug out of the bath. I worry about passing on my own hang ups and anxieties, and I undoubtably will. Already, we’ve heard him using the phrase “too expensive”, and we both know it’s come from me, a chronic stinge.

The other day there was a brief break in a week of rain, and he and I pulled our gumboots on. We gathered up tools and headed into the garden. I dug a hole to plant a shrub, and he jabbed at it with his own tiny spade. When it came time to plant, he pushed dirt in, working quickly. My partner came to a window and waved to us both, and he waved back, but then quickly turned to his work. I started the next plant while he fussed around with some weeds. “Wait for me,” he said when he realised I had started. “Wait for me!” And he came running to help.

He loves this stuff, was my first thought. I’d told people this before and here was further proof. And then it dawned on me like a horror. I saw his eagerness to help, to do what I had declared I would do that morning, eager to be serious and important, a part of a thing he had seen me approach with seriousness and importance. He watches. When I tell a story, his face is as solemn as a chess grandmaster’s, the eyes intent, those brows tremble between a frown and laugh. I can change the ending simply by smiling. Three years now I have been living in Dadland. I am not the only one still learning the language.

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