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A sign on State Highway 1 in Wellington during lockdown in April 2020 (Photo: Mark Tantrum/Getty Images)
A sign on State Highway 1 in Wellington during lockdown in April 2020 (Photo: Mark Tantrum/Getty Images)

BooksApril 5, 2020

Lockdown letters #10, Fiona Farrell: On Ardern and kindness

A sign on State Highway 1 in Wellington during lockdown in April 2020 (Photo: Mark Tantrum/Getty Images)
A sign on State Highway 1 in Wellington during lockdown in April 2020 (Photo: Mark Tantrum/Getty Images)

In our new series The Lockdown Letters, five of New Zealand’s best writers chronicle the days of Covid-19 alert level four. Today, Fiona Farrell.

There’s a sign sticky-taped to the bakery window. Closed Until Further Notice. Stay Safe NZ and Be Kind. We will get through this!

We all know where the words come from: Jacinda Ardern’s address to the nation on March 21 in which, in six minutes, she outlined the structure, based on the best medical advice, that the government has put in place to handle the crisis, dismissed mischievous rumour, offered reassurance to an anxious population and ended with the call. “We will get through this. We know how to rally, and we know how to look after one another, and what could be more important than that? Be strong, be kind and unite against Covid 19.”

It seems that the country has heard her.

Every afternoon when we finish work, we go for a walk. Up the hill, past the shops, and back along the Town Belt. It’s beautiful right now. Blasts of golden leaf flaring among the darker green of native bush. There are always others out walking. Families with kids wobbling along on bikes, joggers, cyclists, all of us bouncing along in our bubbles. We bob to the right or left, giving one another a wide virus-defeating berth, but everyone says Hi, everyone smiles. We are all trying to be kind.

Autumn leaves bank in the gutters. I scuff through thinking about words. Usually it’s the words I’ve been working on that day. But today it’s the words taped to the bakery window.

Be kind.

They have the same magnificent simplicity as Ardern’s phrase of 2019, “They are us.” They have been taken up and echoed back. You hear and read them quoted everywhere, in an interview this week for example, with an Oamaru police officer commenting on a possible spike in domestic violence during lockdown. “Jacinda’s cry, ‘Be kind.’ We need to make sure that phrase is brought into our homes.” The words are so familiar that Steve Braunias was able to use them as the basis for satire in yesterday’s paper, and satire doesn’t work unless its source has universal recognition.

Be kind.

I don’t think this has ever happened before. I have now lived through 17 New Zealand prime ministers. Through Holland and Nash and Holyoake, Kirk, Muldoon, Shipley, Bolger, Clark, Key, and not a single one of them said a thing anyone would be moved to print in black felt tip and sticky tape to a window. There has been a lot of talk about The Economy, there was Lange’s “uranium on your breath”, but that was a quip, not a call to the heart. There has never been anything in our history to come anywhere close to Churchill’s “I can offer nothing but blood, toil, tears and sweat”. or Kennedy’s “Ask not what your country can do for you. Ask what you can do for your country.”

We are, of course, a more pragmatic lot. We don’t speak of conquering mighty peaks, but of knocking the bastard off. We don’t trust rhetoric and are quick to take the piss. Ardern’s simple call was perfectly gauged to us, her audience.

Be kind.

The leaves spin and fall and I walk along thinking about words and leaders and the words they choose and the way they deliver them. About Scott Morrison with his fumbling directives for 30-minute haircuts and the two hour press conferences starting at 9pm when everyone is exhausted. Boris Johnson, assuring the UK of its “fantastic testing system” and that little needed to be done, other than that 70 year olds should probably avoid going on cruises. And Trump, the rogue elephant in the room, trumpeting American invincibility.

Be kind. Be strong. Stay home. Save lives. We will get through this.

So simple. So direct.

Jacinda Ardern walks to the house to declare a State of National Emergency (Photo: Hagen Hopkins/Getty Images)

Ardern also mentioned suffering.

It’s not blood and toil, and we may not be facing Messerschmitts and carpet bombing, but the suffering is here and it’s real. A friend rings. A lot of people are phoning these days, usually around eight, when it’s dark and our bubbles can feel very small. We talk about ourselves and other people and the world and books we’re reading and tv series we’ve discovered on Netflix – grim Nordic crimes in snow bound landscapes, shiny tv series set in a New York that doesn’t feature makeshift morgues in hospital forecourts, travel programmes set in that pre-crisis Italy of exquisite hilltop villages and people laughing round a table. My friend and I have known each other a very long time. We talk about our families, about a relative who is battling the overwhelming difficulties of maintaining a business as links with China, Australia, the US and Europe strain and snap, as markets retreat to their apartments, preoccupied with survival in their own isolation as they watch the convoys of army trucks bearing the bodies to the cemeteries at the edge of the city.

There’s the tiny suffering of a photo of my granddaughter at her friend’s birthday party. Except she is not racing round someone’s backyard, playing Chocolate Sixes. She’s seated in front of a screen along with all the other little girls, each with their little bowl of party treats, some chippies, a slice of cake, watching as the birthday girl blows out her candles and they all from their various isolated bedrooms, join in the song.

We are doing our best, with government subsidies and the battalions of teddy bears in windows up and down the streets. But I so long for this to be over, for bluebirds over white cliffs somewhere and for all the kids to be let out to race about together, squealing and joining in one loud discordant version of Happy Birthday.

Be kind. Be strong. Stay home. Save lives. We will get through this.

The words are clear. They are convincing. I take comfort from them as I take comfort from figures. That today around 100,000 people have so far been confirmed with the infection in Italy and around 10,000 have died. One in ten. In Germany around 50,000 have been confirmed, and around 1000 have died. One in 50. In New Zealand at this moment, more than 900 have been confirmed, and one person has died. One in 900.

I am not suggesting for one minute that these figures are solely a reflection of a country’s leader and their decisions. A whole raft of factors, social, medical, economic, political are at play here. Nor am I crowing, God forbid, with jingoistic self-satisfaction.

No. What I am saying is simply that I find the New Zealand figure reassuring. It persuades me to trust this government’s strategy. It persuades me to place my trust in the prime minister and her ministers and her advisers. I place my trust in her words.

We are a pragmatic nation, not given to fulsome praise. But just for the record, Jacinda Ardern is a magnificent leader. And I think this country is so very fortunate, at this point in global history, that she is here.

Tomorrow: Ashleigh Young

Photo: Getty Images
Photo: Getty Images

BooksApril 4, 2020

Lockdown letters #9, Glenn Colquhoun: ‘C’mon OldKing, it’s time for the footy’

Photo: Getty Images
Photo: Getty Images

In our new series The Lockdown Letters, some of New Zealand’s best writers tell us what they’ve been up to in the days of Covid-19 alert level four. Today, writer and doctor Glenn Colquhoun, with the second of his Letters to Hone Tūwhare and his Travelling Band of Constant Companions.

Hey Dad,

I knew once I started coming down here I’d bump into you sooner or later. The dead are always wandering this beach. Maybe it’s that old magnet-tree up north putting them to the leans… but it might just be that wandering is all there is to it sometimes. Being under a sky. The sound of gulls. The sea throbbing. When I stand here, away from the clutter, I reckon they all add up to some kind of giant pulse. It’s good dead-people-medicine I suppose. Once I fall off the perch I’ll come back here too. Pulses will mean a lot more to me then.

Today is sparkling. Blue sky. Blue sea. A few white ribs poking through. Calling themselves surf I suppose. All mellow, patient roar. We have the same sounds inside us. But I only get reminded of them here. And at night sometimes. When I’m beautifully lonely. Or in the middle of a consultation, when what really needs to be said is being said without words. Landscapes echo us. Or perhaps we them. We come with our own small tides, eddies, currents, and roaring. Recognise them in something larger.

Christ! Give me a slap, man. It’s so good to see you. The whānau is good. You know. Doing what it does. The grandkids are growing up now. Olive is the only one at school. The others are off conquering the world. Jack’s a chippie. Same as you. Karyn’s a pastor – no one saw that coming. But she’s magnificent. Better than me. And wiser. And mum is stunning. 80 this month. We’ve got her locked down. Even had her on a Zoom meeting last week. There’s so much grace in her. Acceptance of life. Such an accumulation of experience. Kindness. I don’t have a clue how to live with that sort of humility. I’m full of want and reach.

I’m not sure what the dead-and-alive rules allow us to be honest… but I thought if I caught you down here I’d love to spend another day with you. Funnily enough I’ve found myself with a bit of time on my hands. Not just any day though. It’s one I’ve kept up my sleeve for a while. I bring it out now and then for the warmth of it. August 3, 1977. I don’t even know if you remember it now. That day Counties played the Lions at Pukekohe Stadium. You came in and picked me up from Mr Westlake’s class in the morning. Knocked on the door. Stood there all broad and working-man-strong and said I had to go with you. I remember your silhouette against the light. Jesus, I was puffed up. Gave my mates the eye and walked out between the desks, making sure they knew. I’d see them on the other side of the border. I was OldKing in those days. That’s what you called me. “C’mon OldKing,” you said. “It’s time for the footy.”

I remember the overwhelming expectation too. The build-up for months before. It was as though Jesus himself had mounted the cloud and was on his way. And only you and I knew what to do about it. I followed the tour from stop to stop. Wairarapa-Bush. King Country. Lancaster Park. Carisbrook. Phil Bennet. Moss Keane. J.J. Williams. Walking out of the classroom that day my body felt the way it did whenever it hit the water in the Papatoetoe swimming pools on a burning day in summer. As though it was enveloped by the clean calm cool of water. Wrapped in some kind of light. A timelessness. I was eternal. For a moment. I wonder if that’s what eternal life is. I get that feeling from writing now. It’s my swimming pool. My rugby. My day at the beach. I’m always surprised by what a physical thing it is. A visceral, wrestling, urgent thing.

I remember the trip out there too in the gold Kingswood. That one we crashed I think. Or maybe it was the white Charger. I haven’t really got a clue. But I can feel the spring in the grass walking across the field towards the east bank. It’s still in the soles of my feet. It was sunny and you lent down towards me, just behind the northern goalposts, and said, “Ooh, OldKing, it’s a dry day, Bruce Robertson will be dancing all around them today. Cutting them to ribbons.” I looked up and believed every word. Right then I thought you knew more about rugby that anyone else on the planet. So that’s what was gonna happen. You’d seen it. It was our day. We ate pies and sat on the grass with Patrick Tavai’s dad and his mate from Ōtara church. You’d been helping them to build a new one and I remember the way they talked and their humour. I knew they were different from us and brown. But it was the shape our family was sailing towards then. It was a world of wide open smiles and corned beef and taro and potato salads made out of beetroot and mayonnaise — and a whole new way of laughing and taking the piss. I liked it that we were their friends.

We lost though eh. We actually got thrashed. 35-10. Bruce Robertson did twinkle… but they shut him down pretty quickly. Bastards. I remember the standing and sitting. The almosts and oh nos. The crowd acting like it was one big organism. I remember our man eating too. Hot dogs and buckets of chips. And just sitting next to you. We were a small equation. A dad squared. That was before all the falling down. The Parkinson disease. The reductions. The secret lives brought out into the glare. I loved you through all those things. But somewhere I grew bigger and you grew smaller. That day though I was your son and you were my dad. I was little and you were big. I shiver to think of it. And if we weren’t shut down right now and hiding from death I might not have bumped into you and come to spend it with you again. So whatever or whoever I have to thank for that. Thanks.

I love you Dad. You are never far away. I carry you with me. You’re in every consultation. Especially when I need to talk to men. And to put up with them. Understand them. Or when I am with someone who has broken. You are in so many poems too. Mainly when I don’t want to sound like a wanker. We have so many adventures still.

Go well, OldKing. Next time we’ll lie around on the floor up home and watch a western or two. One with a cavalry in it. Or vengeance. Perhaps a gunslinger waiting to meet someone who can outdraw him. Stick close to Hone and the aunties. They’re pretty tidy at cards. But watch his drinking. And their cheating. You’ll like them. Maybe even Mickey, if you give him a chance. Tell John Keats I’d love a word. And Aunty Maude. Te Rauparaha too. Catch you in the great throb, brother. Lub-Dub. Lub-Dub. Lub-Dub. Lub-Dub.

Kia ora Aunty Maude!

Hmmm. Kiss. Kiss. Kiss. Maaaann, it’s good to see you. You’re a long way from Motuti and those flour-sack undies here ?. Our whare is still in good nick. Twinkling up there by the harbour. Last time I was in town I could tell it missed you. Make sure you drop by sometime. Hey, take care of my dad eh? He’ll be OK. Just keep chatting to him. And stopping for a rest now and then. Tell him your pillow story. That’ll crack him up. And, oooh, fuck! Tell Aunty Flu that pickle was soooo good. She’s a bloody pickle tohunga. Good to see the ukulele is out. Tell Hemi Reeves he could learn a few things from us. Let’s do a song… just for the hell of it.

I-know-that-I-won’t-for-get-you
For-I’ve-loved-you-too-much-for-too-long.
Though-you-don’t-want-me-now-I’ll-still-lo-o-ve you
Till-the-breath-in-my-body-is-gone

That’s-how-it-is-with-me
And-you’ll-al-ways-be
The-only-love-I-ever-knew-oo-oo.
I’ll-for-get-many-things-in-my-li-i-fe-time
But-my-dar-ling-I-won’t-forget-you

Tomorrow: Fiona Farrell