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Children at the Florence Booth home, one of many set up in New Zealand to house children in state care (Photo: Supplied)
Children at the Florence Booth home, one of many set up in New Zealand to house children in state care (Photo: Supplied)

SocietyNovember 10, 2019

Abuse in care hearings: Survivors determined to protect future generations

Children at the Florence Booth home, one of many set up in New Zealand to house children in state care (Photo: Supplied)
Children at the Florence Booth home, one of many set up in New Zealand to house children in state care (Photo: Supplied)

After two weeks of deeply personal tales at the Royal Commission of Inquiry into Abuse in Care hearing, common threads began to emerge. Katie Scotcher reports, in a piece originally published on RNZ.

The setting was impersonal – a hotel conference room, with thick charcoal commercial carpet and name cards placed neatly on tables – but the stories told at the two-week-long Royal Commission of Inquiry into Abuse in Care couldn’t have been more personal. Trembling people told stories of being placed in institutions or homes and then raped and thrashed, of having their hearts hardened or broken.

Yet after two weeks of unique stories, common threads were apparent: pain was passed down from generation to generation; Māori were disproportionately abused; disabled people were treated as numbers; abuse led to crime; and survivors were determined to speak out and stop it ever happening again.

Children at Epuni Boys’ Home in Lower Hutt (Photo: Supplied/RNZ)

Intergenerational trauma: ‘Anger at my father cost an innocent man his life’

When Dr Rawiri Waretini-Karena was first taken to Tower Hill Receiving Home for Boys in Hamilton, his five-year-old body was covered in bruises.

He would spend the next 12 years as a child of the state; moving from state home to foster parents to boys’ homes, and while he experienced physical violence at each, nothing compared to the abuse he experienced at the hands of his father.

Waretini-Karena only spent six months of his childhood with his whānau. In that time, he was blamed for his infant brother’s death and he set fire to the bed his father was sleeping in.

But he didn’t drop the blame in his father’s lap. He told the Royal Commission the abuse stemmed from much earlier trauma. His early ancestors lost millions of acres of land in the Waikato invasion and generations of his whānau became “intergenerationally impoverished as a result”.

His grandfather could only speak te reo Māori when he was taken by the state as a child in 1930. He was beaten until he learned English. His father was placed into care in 1954 and suffered traumatic abuse. He never dealt with this trauma, Waretini-Karena said, so he passed it on to his whānau.

Waretini-Karena had to find a way to survive it. “I would go into a trance as a coping mechanism for dealing with it and at that time no one helped me through that, in fact I didn’t really understand what was going on.”

Around the time he was released from state care, Waretini-Karena met up with a friend who had also spent time at Tower Hill. They heard about a five-year-old who they believed was being abused by his father.

Waretini-Karena, who is now a lecturer and researcher, told the inquiry he projected his experiences with his father on to the child’s father, and then went and killed him.

Later he found out the man hadn’t abused his son.

“I came to this conclusion that my own experiences of trauma, my own history, my own demons, my own anger at my father cost an innocent man his life. And so, I was convicted of murder and sent to prison,” Waretini-Karena told the inquiry.

People in the public gallery wept.

Kohitere Boy’s Training Centre in Levin, one of the institutions at the centre of abuse claims (Photo: RNZ / Aaron Smale)

Crime and gangs: ‘A lot of kids in that world don’t know how to love’

Waretini-Karena wasn’t the only survivor to tell the Royal Commission he’d committed a crime. In fact, most people who gave evidence did.

One of New Zealand’s longest-serving prisoners, Arthur Taylor, boldly told the Royal Commission his 150-plus convictions probably wouldn’t exist if he hadn’t been placed in state care.

He was 11 when he was taken to the state-run Epuni Boys’ Home in Lower Hutt after being caught wagging school. At that time, he said, crime was “abhorrent” to him, but three abusive stints at the home changed that.

“I started absconding with other kids and they’d steal cars and we’d get arrested by the police and then I’d come into contact with the police and end up in their cells… I started to really take a dislike to the police because of the way they used to treat me and that’s, I guess, when it started.”

He went on to clock up convictions for dishonesty, fraud, perverting the course of justice, escaping, arson and aggravated robbery, among others, and spent a total of 39 years in prison. He was released in February.

While Taylor was probably the most well-known survivor to give evidence, the trajectory of his life story was common.

Fa’afete Taito now has a degree in sociology and Māori, but he was in his early teens when he first got involved with gangs. He was placed in a halfway home with patched members after several extremely violent stints at Ōwairaka Boys’ Home in Auckland.

He knew a few boys from state care homes who had already joined Black Power and the Mongrel Mob, but he was more interested in the King Cobras. By 16 years old, he was a fully patched member.

Taito became fully immersed in a world of violence and remained in it for decades, collecting convictions and drug addictions along the way and coming to believe his relationships should be aggressive, antagonistic and violent.

He told the inquiry, “Over the years I was in that world, I realised I lost the ability to love… a lot of kids in that world don’t know how to love. They don’t know what it means to be loved, they don’t know how to love back.”

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Māori in care: ‘Māori were considered to be a dangerous under-class’

Taito’s experience was far from unique – between 1967 and 1976, 116,595 children were funnelled through the justice system, the Royal Commission was told.

While that figure might seem huge, another is just as alarming: 41% of those children were Māori. And those Māori were more likely to receive harsher sentences, meaning they were remanded to social welfare homes or borstals, often after spending days in police cells.

Sir Kim Workman joined the police in 1958 then had a stint at the ombudsman’s office before becoming the head of the prison service.

He told the Royal Commission Māori police officers were few and far between when he was on the force. By 1966, only 69 of the of 2698 police officers were Māori.

Workman said he was recruited into a force that suppressed its Māori officers’ heritage, lacked cultural understanding and believed it was fighting a war on crime. Young Māori were often seen as the enemy.

“For some police officers, Māori were considered to be a dangerous under-class. If a group of young Māori children were skylarking down the street, often singing and so on, they became a target for police attention. If it was a group of young Pākehā children doing the same thing, they were just kids having fun.”

Dr Oliver Sutherland, a fierce advocate for abuse survivors, shared a lifetime of work with the inquiry; compiling decades of research into a book written especially for the Royal Commission.

“When you looked at the sentences that they got, you discovered that those who got the softer sentences, being fined or getting periodic detention, they were more predominantly the non-Māori.”

While it is clear a disproportionate number of Māori children were placed before the courts, it’s not known how many Pasifika children were. When asked for the figures, Sutherland said the records simply don’t exist, they only show Māori and non-Māori.

It did not just take an experience with the justice system to enter the clutch of the state. Many Māori children were adopted, plucked from school, voluntarily placed there or taken from their whānau.

Sir Kim Workman (Photo: Supplied/RNZ)

Disabled people in care: ‘We were just a number’

As well as Māori children, kids with learning and/or physical disabilities were often placed in care and remained there for their entire adult lives.

Robert Martin was one of them. His brain was damaged at birth by a doctor using forceps and was placed at Levin’s Kimberley Centre after his mother was encouraged to give up her “retarded” son and forget about him.

He told the Royal Commission that children at the centre were not loved or cuddled – they were just a number. “You were not given your own clothes; we had to share a pool of clothes and grab what we could get. We never had our own underwear.”

Martin, who is now a disability rights activist, said he missed out on things people take for granted – feeding the ducks, birthday parties, caring for their own pet. “Many children have a cat to cuddle and call their own. Children in institutions do not. I adopted cats and made them my friends but then I was moved and lost that friend.”

He was physically and sexually assaulted and neglected at the Kimberley Centre and in other homes, institutions and psychiatric hospitals.

Director of the Donald Beasley Institute, Dr Brigit Mirfin-Veitch, said some of this county’s most vulnerable were regularly restrained, neglected and abused in care between the 1950s and 1990s.

Regardless of the institutions they were placed in, Mirfin-Veitch said disabled people lived in constant fear and sexual violence was an inescapable and unchallenged reality. “They would keep quiet and hoped it wouldn’t happen again.”

She recalled the experience of one survivor who said they could often smell people who needed assistance to go to the bathroom but weren’t given it. “There were people who couldn’t move… most of those people were non-verbal and were trapped until someone got around to attending to them.”

Mirfin-Veitch concluded her evidence by telling the Royal Commission abuse and neglect was not in the past. There are clear gaps in the system, she said, that make it possible for disabled people to be mistreated in care and for it to go undetected.

Sonja Cooper and Amanda Hill’s testimony lasted four hours (Photo: RNZ / Katie Scotcher)

Long time coming, long road ahead

Lawyers Sonja Cooper and Amanda Hill, partners at Cooper Legal, have helped 11,000 survivors bring their stories into the light and settle claims with the ministries of Social Development, Health and Education, as well as faith-based institutions.

Theirs was the longest testimony of the hearing, with their evidence lasting about four hours. That wasn’t enough time to run through the experiences of all their clients, but the stories they did share were harrowing.

Cooper said four staff members at Porirua Hospital in the 1970s held a young boy by each of his limbs, pulled him up and dropped him on the concrete – a punishment known as the concrete-pill. Others received unmodified electro-convulsive treatment, were threatened with lobotomies and forced to stand naked as staff touched their genitals.

The claims Cooper Legal, one of the only firms to help survivors take civil claims against the state and churches for abuse they suffered as children and vulnerable adults, has settled now total nearly $23 million. But Cooper said not one of their clients has received adequate compensation for the harm that has been done to them.

Like the survivors who battled for compensation, those that spoke at the Royal Commission were fighting too. They had to face and focus on the darkest chapters of their lives in order to share their stories. For many it was the first time they had spoken of their trauma. They described the cost of doing so – sleepless nights, exhaustion and anxiety.

But they had an overwhelming motivation – to protect the children currently in care. By sharing their own stories, they hoped to break the cycle and ensure no more children experienced the horrors they did.

*This hearing has finished but the Royal Commission of Inquiry won’t hand over its final report to the governor-general until 2023

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SocietyNovember 10, 2019

Not much of a life: Two years since I was wrongly sectioned

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The four days Paula Harris spent in the psych ward against her will, with only the overwhelming negativity of her own depressed brain for company, ‘breached the legislation’. It also scarred her forever. 

It was a Friday when I went into the psych ward. Friday the 13th. Yesterday was Sunday. Yesterday was the second anniversary of when I was put in the psych ward against my will.

Three weeks ago the mental health district inspector ruled that the legislation had been breached when I was sectioned and put in the psych ward. There’s no fanfare, nothing arrives in the mail, no one says sorry. I got an email with a pdf attached. On the third page it said that she found the legislation had been breached. Not that my rights had been breached, but the legislation.

In investigating my case – seven months after I laid a complaint with her about my sectioning, followed by more chasing up than I should’ve needed to do – she reviewed the paperwork for all the recent Section 9s at Palmerston North Hospital. Section 9(2)(d) is the bit of the legislation where you’re officially told you’re being assessed, to determine if you’re mentally unsound, to decide if you’re being involuntarily admitted to the psych ward. There’s meant to be a friend/family member/non-mental-health staff member present, to ensure your rights are protected; the legislation even says “This process reflects the possibility that a person may lose their liberty following the assessment examination”. That’s the bit of the legislation that had been breached with me. I was alone throughout the process. Alone and scared. It turns out it had been breached in all the recent Section 9s she reviewed. So, a systemic flaw, rather than an accidental one-off. The mental health district inspector (MHDI) has ordered that all relevant staff are to have further training, and that this is to be a priority.

What I think about is the likelihood that, in the 23 months between when I was put in the psych ward and when the MHDI made her decision, not a single patient went through the process properly. Who knows how long it had been happening before my own Section 9(2)(d). How many patients were alone and scared? All of us with our rights breached. I don’t know if any of those other patients will ever even know.

Breached.

Breached.

Breached.

Breached.

Breached.

Breached.

Breached.

When I got the email, when I read the pdf, when I saw “breached”, I cried. Non-stop. For an hour and a half. I didn’t know I had any more grieving left in me, but it turns out I do. I still had to grieve for the life I used to have, the life I lost when I went into the psych ward and got so damaged from the experience that now I don’t have a life. Loud, full-bodied crying for an hour and a half.

The MHDI said in her comments that if the legislation had been followed properly, that maybe things would’ve been different. Maybe I wouldn’t have been sectioned. She wrote it in legal language. Maybe I would’ve still been sectioned, but maybe I wouldn’t. It’s hard to see that written down. It’s the thing that’s in my head a lot – if they’d followed the legislation, maybe things would’ve been different?? – but seeing it written down made it real. It’s like my own personal Sliding Doors, and here is the sliding door where the legislation is followed and I don’t go into the psych ward and I still have depression and life is still a struggle but I’m also OK enough, I still have a life.

Photo: iStock

I know someone will read this and say, “She just needs a bit of resilience!” or “It’s been two years, just get over it.” Fuck you. I’m not a resilient person, and that isn’t a flaw. It’s not who I am. It doesn’t make any of this invalid, just different to how you think you’d cope.

A few years ago I read an article about how some people who’ve grown up with abuse or go through a major trauma can develop two internal calendars. One is a linear calendar, the Gregorian calendar – put the recycling out on Monday, go to dance class on Wednesday, remember your friend’s birthday is on the 23rd. The second calendar is one you don’t even notice most of the time, but it keeps track of the Big Dates. Even when you’re not trying to remember, it does. Heightened emotions around certain events makes them stick in our heads stronger. Which is why, even without paying attention to it, I always feel low in the week leading up to January 9 – the day I had to have emergency surgery because I was dying. It’s been 19 years, and yet still, every January 9, my energy is flat. January 19 – the day I had to have another round of emergency surgery because I was dying, again, and had to say goodbye to my father and best friend at 4 in the morning because my chances of making it were 25%. For 19 years, without me wanting to remember those two dates, my brain keeps track and remembers. Now I remember October 13 as well, the day I got put in the psych ward against my will.

It’s hard to explain how four days messed me up so much. But – try to imagine if everything you did or said, you were told was wrong. And considered wrong purely on the basis of a bit of paper saying that you’re mentally unsound, and therefore nothing you do could possibly be a normal human reaction. I was repeatedly told off for breaking rules, but no one told me the rules. That I was tired, that I wasn’t tired, that I was hungry, that I wasn’t hungry, that I was calm, that I was upset… all signs that I was mentally unsound. I wanted to yell at them: “Tell me what normal behaviour is then, and I’ll do that.” That would’ve definitely been considered mentally unsound.

Some days I really wish that, when I’d been admitted to the psych ward, someone had sat down and held my hand and told me that they knew I’d be a bit freaked out by all this, and that ending up in the psych ward was probably a shock and not what I had planned for my day, but it was OK to feel that way. And that I’d be OK.

No one did that. Instead they acted like it was no surprise that I was in the psych ward and repeatedly told me I had to get better in order to be released but didn’t tell me what get better actually meant or how to do it.

It made me doubt my own brain. It made my depression worse because I was removed from all the things I used to distract myself from my depression – mainly work and television and the internet – so I spent four days with only the overwhelming negativity of my own depressed brain for company. It made me realise how entirely pointless my life is.

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On Thursday I saw my hospital psychologist, The Lovely Harry. I see him every week. In his notes from our first session – two years and two months ago – he wrote that “a brief psychotherapeutic intervention” would be helpful for me; as in, a bit of therapy for a little while to help me cope better, to improve my quality of life. Then I was put in the psych ward and so we still meet every Thursday at 11am, unless he’s on holiday. To mark two years of us meeting, I scanned and printed out that bit from his notes, about the brief psychotherapeutic intervention. Next to it I wrote, “Well, brief in terms of the history of the universe, I guess.” I gave him a card with that note attached. We half-laughed. He nodded, yes, brief in terms of the history of the universe.

On Thursday he mentioned how he still thought that if I had moved – to London, to Paris, to the US – a long time ago, then maybe I would’ve found some kindred spirits and I wouldn’t have ended up in this place that I am. That I’d have a proper writing career and a circle of creative friends; he thinks sculptors and poets make for a good mix. Later we talked about Sunday and the anniversary of my being sectioned and he asked if I’d made plans to do something on Sunday, and I half-smiled sadly at him and said, “Want to go to Paris for the weekend?” And he half-laughed sadly.

I told him I’d probably stay in bed all day and get drunk. He said that staying in bed all day seemed like a good plan, but maybe rather than drunk I could just be mildly buzzed. Enough to take the edge off the day, if I felt I needed to drink.

I didn’t tell him that what I wanted to do is wake up and find Rawiri next to me. He probably guessed that that’s what I’d want though; Harry is smart like that. I wanted to spend the entire day in bed with Rawiri and have a little human contact for a while. But since it’s been five and a half months since he ghosted me, that was always pretty unlikely. He was always super accepting of my depression and suicidality and anxiety and me, but I don’t think he’d have suddenly woken up with the urge to be with me on a day that I find really stressful, especially when he doesn’t know the actual anniversary date. I’m not quite up to messaging him and asking for a sympathy fuck, but I definitely wouldn’t say no if he offered it.

The only human touch I get any more is when my beauty therapist gives me a hug at my appointments. They’re superb hugs, but still, it’s not a lot to sustain myself on.

Two years ago I’d just found my dream premises to move my business to. For three years I’d been looking for premises that fit with what I needed. I’d had this picture in my head for 10 years of how I needed my business to work in order to create something sustainable. The new premises even had a small room where I could put a bed so that I could rest during the day, because I’d realised that I need to have daytime sleeps in order to manage my mental health better. Two years ago $14,000 worth of equipment had just arrived in the country, as part of this next big step forward. It was stressful and scary but I was excited. Depressed – because I’ve had depression since I was a kid, so depression is often in the mix – and struggling, but excited. If things went OK in a couple of years I’d have a bit more freedom, I’d have a lifestyle where I could cope better.

I closed up my business 21 months ago. All that equipment is still sitting in its shipping crates. I should probably sell it some time soon.

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You don’t get ACC for your depression being made worse by the health system. You don’t get support or payments of any kind. When your psychiatrist is having a really shitty week in the lead-up to seeing you (assessing a patient and declaring them to be fine, and that patient then going home and trying to kill their children before killing themselves); when your psychiatrist is overworked and stressed, having to explain to management their clinical reasoning with that other patient, on the same day he’ll meet you for the first time and then declare you suicidal and mentally unsound – that isn’t medical misadventure, it’s just bad luck as far as the system’s concerned. And not their responsibility.

When I had mediation with the psychiatrist who put me in the ward, Harry acted as the informal mediator. Beforehand Harry encouraged the psychiatrist – I call him Voldemort, because hearing his actual name makes me have an anxiety attack – to tell me about what had been going on with him that week. Voldemort decided not to tell me about that other patient, about the stress. Voldemort had said to Harry that maybe, maybe, he’d made the wrong decision with me. Harry encouraged Voldemort to apologise to me, on the basis that it would help both Voldemort and myself heal a little.

Voldemort didn’t. He remained super aloof and told me that he’d had trouble “hearing” me that day. There was one moment when his defences slid, when he said that yes, maybe it wasn’t always helpful for patients with depression to be put in the psych ward. And then he inhaled and his defences went back up and he told me that those patients could just have therapy after the ward and then they’d be fine.

I’m not fine.

Someone said to me that only people who really need to be in the psych ward are sectioned. There aren’t enough resources to just section people willy-nilly. That hurt a lot, hearing that. When I told Harry – and by told I mean I was crying because maybe I’m so broken I don’t even recognise that I did deserve to go into the psych ward – his response was, “Fuck that. The wrong people are put in the psych ward all the time.” And yes, while the theory of not-enough-resources-so-only-those-in-need-are-sectioned is fine, in theory, it overlooks the reality that the paperwork, the decisions about that, are made by psychiatrists. Who are humans with flaws, because we all have flaws. Humans who are overworked and stressed and a bit rushed that day. Humans who are having a shitty week. So sometimes they’re going to make the wrong call.

I really wish the mental health system would support their staff better, so they didn’t have to have too many shitty weeks. Selfishly I wish this because if the staff are supported and doing better, then the patients are going to get better treatment. I feel sad for Voldemort – I mean, yes, I’m still angry at him, but sad too – that he had to have a really bad week and then he and I were put in front of each other, and that was never going to go well, given the patient who’d committed suicide after he’d said they were OK. Of course he was going to be excessively cautious and likely to be questioning his judgment when he met with me. But no one looked at his diary and said, “You know what, maybe we’ll change around your appointments for this week so that you don’t have to meet with this patient we’ve noted as being moderately depressed with chronic suicidality.” Instead we were left to collide with each other’s shitty week. Kaboom.

This is what I did yesterday, two years after I went into the psych ward against my will. I stayed in bed all day, with the curtains closed. My beauty therapist gave me her Netflix log-in, so I binge-watched Sex Education and Gillian Anderson is still super hot and somehow that made things a bit more tolerable. I cried. I slept. I drank just enough throughout the day to maintain feeling slightly buzzed most of the time. No one showed up to offer me sympathy sex. Just after 5 this morning I woke up and cried non-stop for 10 minutes.

I know, someone else would go through that same experience and come out the other side doing OK. But this is what the psych ward did to me. I don’t leave the house very often because I find it overwhelming and I don’t trust people much any more. My appointments with Harry are the good thing in my week. The only other times I usually leave the house are to see my beauty therapist or osteopath. I’m in debt because I don’t have any income (well, I average about $100 a month from writing, but that isn’t really an income, is it?).

The day I went into the psych ward I was struggling. The day I came out of the psych ward I was broken. Two years after going into the psych ward against my will, I’m still broken. In the last couple of months I’ve realised that what I’ve really been wanting is for someone to apologise. And mean it. Voldemort. The hospital. Someone to say sorry, that it was a bad judgment call. Sorry. Sorry for damaging you, Paula.

No one is going to say sorry.