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Giselle Clarkson’s books confessional (Image: Archi Banal)
Giselle Clarkson’s books confessional (Image: Archi Banal)

BooksOctober 18, 2023

‘I could barely even breathe’: Giselle Clarkson on the perils of pubic speaking (not a typo)

Giselle Clarkson’s books confessional (Image: Archi Banal)
Giselle Clarkson’s books confessional (Image: Archi Banal)

Welcome to The Spinoff Books Confessional, in which we get to know the reading habits and quirks of New Zealanders at large. This week: author, illustrator and 2023 Arts Laureate, Giselle Clarkson.

The book I wish I’d written

Jon Klassen’s The Rock From The Sky or Du Iz Tak by Carson Ellis. I’m in awe of their ideas and their execution and it reminds me what is possible with picture books. The fact both these books are written in pure dialog really appeals to me, with the illustrations doing the rest of the storytelling, so there are links with graphic novels there too.

Everyone should read

More Aotearoa picture books. There are stunning illustrated books coming out all the time from local authors and illustrators and I want people to know how rich and incredible the selection is! And all the best ones are a delight to read as an adult too. They’re like really thin coffee-table books so you could easily have a big pile of them, and then you’ll be amazing at choosing presents for the kids in your life too. It’s WELL worth browsing some new releases or asking your excellent local bookseller for recommendations. Some really cool ones that have come out recently are Paku Manu Ariki Whakatakapōkai (Michaela Keeble, Tokerau Brown), Dazzlehands (Sacha Cotter, Josh Morgan) and Lucy and the Dark (Melinda Szymanik, Vasanti Unka).

 The book I want to be buried with

Although there are many books I adore I can’t think of one that feels like a part of me in that way. It would be lovely to think that I just haven’t met the right book yet! But then, even if I found the right book it feels like a waste to be buried with it. I would want to give my (presumably well-worn) copy to someone who would treasure it as much as I did.

Three books Giselle Clarkson thinks everyone should read.

The first book I remember reading by myself

The Rabbit’s Wedding, by Garth Williams. It’s about a little black rabbit who’s sad because he wants to marry his friend the little while rabbit but won’t tell her how he feels. A few years ago I was looking into The Rabbit’s Wedding for one of my comics on The Sapling and turns out it was banned in Alabama when it came out in 1958 because they thought it was making a statement about interracial marriage. They’re rabbits! Reading it as an adult I find the behaviour of the boy rabbit a bit weird and annoying, but the illustrations are nice.

The book I wish I’d never read

I don’t have a strong stomach for body stuff, so I’m not sure what I thought I was getting into when I picked up Bill Bryson’s book, The Body. I liked his book about houses! I guess I thought I’d be in for some facts about the history of underpants or why we still have toenails. But somewhere within the first couple of chapters was a bit about a woman who scratched herself in the same spot for so long that she…argh! I feel ill just thinking about it. I closed the book and put on Paddington 2 to try and get the image out of my brain but even that didn’t work.

Fiction or nonfiction?

Both, but mainly fiction. I like historical stuff. I like bildungsroman-y novels like The Goldfinch, Demon Copperhead and All The Light We Cannot See. I like to be completely immersed for a long period of time in other life, in another place. They’re the sort of books that make me feel a bit disorientated and forlorn (in a bittersweet way) right after I finish them.

The non-fiction I enjoy the most is essays, by writers like Ashleigh Young, Rose Lu and Madison Hamill. We have so many exceptional essayists in New Zealand! This year I also read The McCartney Legacy Vol 1, which is 700 deeply nerdy pages on the first three post-Beatles years of Paul McCartney’s career, so that’s my specialist subject sorted if I ever have to be a contestant on Mastermind.

The book that made me cry

The His Dark Materials series by Philip Pullman. There were at least three places where I absolutely sobbed but I won’t say what they are in case there is someone reading this who is a late-comer to the series like I was. It took 26 years of my friend badgering me before I finally read Northern Lights and she was absolutely right about them all along. 

I did try reading Northern Lights when I was in primary school but on the first page I encountered the word “daemon” and never got any further. I’d never read fantasy before and I NEEDED to know what the word meant, but instead of reading further to find out I looked in a dictionary and asked my parents, getting no answers. And then my brother told me it was something to do with computer programming and I gave up.

From left to right: the book Giselle Clarkson wishes she hadn’t read; the book that made her cry; and the author that made her laugh.

The book that made me laugh

In year four the teacher asked me to read aloud to the class while she did other stuff and I got to pick the book. I was really into Paul Jennings and I chose to read his short story ‘Pubic Hare’, about a kid who’s embarrassed about growing pubes before anyone else in his class. He trains himself to have psychic powers so he can transplant his own curly-wurlies onto everyone else in revenge. I’d only just learnt what pubic hair even was and I was up in front of the class bright red and weeping with laughter because I’d know the word “pubic” was coming up and it was so funny I could barely even breathe enough to say it out loud.

Best place to read

The bath. I do this most nights. It sounds more decadent than it is because my house is old and doesn’t have a shower. I started reading in the bath because I’m not very good at relaxing but I feel guilty about running all that hot water and then not using it for very long, so I figured reading would make me stay put a while. I haven’t dropped a book yet.

What are you reading right now?

Last night I finished reading Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin. I really wanted to like it but my enthusiasm starting waning about halfway through and I left it sitting with one chapter left for a couple of nights because I wasn’t invested enough to find out how it ended. It wasn’t for me, but I’m looking forward to having impromptu book club chats with other people who’ve read it. I want to read The Vaster Wilds by Lauren Groff next. Her last book, Matrix, was one I wasn’t sure I’d be into but ended up absolutely devouring!

The Observologist: A handbook for mounting very small scientific expeditions, written and illustrated by Giselle Clarkson ($40, Gecko Press) can be purchased from Unity Books Wellington and Auckland.

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Emma Pearl (centre, age 6), her sister (right, age 3) and Roald Dahl at Pearl’s primary school book fair. (Photo: Supplied)
Emma Pearl (centre, age 6), her sister (right, age 3) and Roald Dahl at Pearl’s primary school book fair. (Photo: Supplied)

BooksOctober 16, 2023

My great uncle Roald Dahl

Emma Pearl (centre, age 6), her sister (right, age 3) and Roald Dahl at Pearl’s primary school book fair. (Photo: Supplied)
Emma Pearl (centre, age 6), her sister (right, age 3) and Roald Dahl at Pearl’s primary school book fair. (Photo: Supplied)

Roald Dahl dedicated The Twits to his great niece, Emma Pearl. Now an author herself, she reflects on the huge impact he had on her life and work.

Roald Dahl was my great uncle – my grandmother’s brother on my mother’s side – and also, by a bizarre twist of fate, one of my father’s oldest friends. They met while teenagers on a schoolboys’ “Exploring Society” expedition to Newfoundland in 1934 – a real-life Boys’ Own adventure. They remained firm friends throughout their lives but it wasn’t until nearly forty years later that my dad married Roald’s niece and the friendship was cemented by family ties. 

Roald was a kind of uncle-grandfather-mentor figure in my early life, a larger-than-life presence, playing a part in many of my pivotal childhood experiences. He was that kind of person – the hub around which many layers of family revolved. A focal point. A polestar. A force of nature.

My memories of him are many and varied. When I was five, Roald challenged me to swim a width of his swimming pool, which seemed an impossibly long distance for a little girl who was struggling with doggy paddle and nervous of the water. The reward, should I choose to accept the challenge, was the biggest box of chocolates ever. 

The lure of such a prize spurred me on, of course, as Roald knew it would. I practised and practised, a spark of inner determination was ignited in me. Eventually, after several weeks of “training”, I spluttered my way across the pool to claim my prize. It was the biggest box of chocolates that money could buy (in the corner shop on Great Missenden High Street), and certainly the biggest I had ever seen. 

Although I didn’t realise it at the time, I suppose that was when I learnt that it’s worth putting in the hard work to overcome your fears and achieve a goal, no matter how impossible it seems when you start out. That achieving such a goal gives you an enormous boost of serotonin, self-confidence and pride. That dedication and commitment leads to results. That it’s all worth it in the end.

I was younger than Roald’s own children but older than his grandchildren, and so I happened to be a child during the years that Roald was writing most of his books for children. Lucky me! In many ways, I grew up not only with his books, like so many children around the world, but also with his body of work, growing older as the number of bestsellers emerging from that famous writing shed in his garden increased. I was always eager to read the next one, and beyond delighted to receive the pristine signed copy of the first edition hot off the press that Roald so kindly and solemnly gave us, a little ritual to mark the publication of each book. 

The most exciting one of all for me was The Twits. I was seven when this was published and – oh, how lucky I felt! – Roald dedicated it to me. My own name at the front of the book! “For Emma”. To be perfectly honest, I wondered what I could possibly have done to deserve this. It felt like such a special honour, and it still does. Even now I am rarely able to leave a bookshop without seeking out a copy and looking for my name in it. It still sends a tingle down my spine. At seven years old, it was unimaginably thrilling.

The Dahl children left to right: Asta, Else (Pearl’s grandmother), Alfhild and Roald. Pearl’s guess is that this was taken around 1924/25. (Photo: Supplied)

Roald always took an interest in my progress at school, even though he didn’t care much for school himself. He came to my primary school book fair to sign books and raise money for the school to start its own library. I think he judged a school writing competition at one point. When I was 10, he suggested I record an interview with him to share with my class. I recently rediscovered this recording, which is quite charming, complete with parents clinking tea cups and the dog barking in the background (you can listen to it on my website). I believe there might even be a tiny bit of me in Matilda – I was a pre-school bookworm (although not in Matilda’s league!) and one of my high school teachers bore an uncanny resemblance to Miss Trunchbull. Now, as a writer myself, I can totally believe that all conversations with young people provide material that may one day end up in stories.

I was 17 when Roald died, and that was my first experience of death, magnified several-fold because my own loss, although deep and somewhat terrifying, paled in comparison to that of his closest family members. My beloved grandmother had lost her brother, whom she adored. Roald’s children had lost their father, Liccy her husband. But it also felt as if the world had lost something precious too. How many more incredible stories might he have written if he’d lived longer? What other wonderful characters would have entered the collective consciousness of children across the globe?

There is no denying the scope and longevity of Roald’s influence on generations of individuals who have read and loved his stories throughout the decades. But he also had a profound influence on me personally, and he still appears regularly in my dreams with his wry chuckle, twinkling eyes, bad language and well-worn cardigans. 

Being related to one of the all-time greats of children’s literature was a blessing in so many ways. However, as a writer myself, it was not without its drawbacks. Did Roald instil in me a love of stories, a tendency to seek out the magic hidden in the ordinary, and an appreciation that hard work and perseverance leads to rewards? Yes, undoubtedly. All those things and much more. Did his lofty status as a celebrated author play havoc with my own confidence levels as a writer? For sure. Following in his footsteps, I felt like Sophie trying to keep up with the BFG. Which is, I’m sure, part of the reason I didn’t even attempt it until I was in my mid-40s. 

I’ve written stories since I was old enough to hold a pencil. I wrote reams of poetry in my teens and my first novel in my twenties. But I was never brave enough to share my work, possibly for fear of being compared to and inevitably falling well short of my famous uncle. Once I had settled down with my own family and had some time and space out of the rat race, I decided that writing was what I wanted to do – it always had been – and that I just needed to bite the bullet and get on with it.

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It’s been a long and arduous road to publication. There is so much to learn – about the craft of writing, the quirks of a strange and mysterious industry, not to mention all the non-writing-related parts of being an author. The time spent on marketing, publicity, self-promotion, website creation, social media presence, how to use Canva, networking, critiquing, reading, analysing, devising craft activities and educational resources, keeping up to date with market trends and the latest published works – the list is endless – far outweighs the time spent actually writing. And don’t get me started on the rejections! They are relentless and soul destroying. You need to develop a skin thicker than a rhinoceros, which I’ve never quite managed.

But when I held my published book in my hands for the first time, it felt like the biggest box of chocolates in the world. In the end, it’s all worth it. And even though there’s little chance that I’ll ever create a Matilda, a Charlie or a James, even though I will forever be a child running behind a giant, I believe in my heart that Roald would be proud.

Saving the Sun by Emma Pearl and illustrated by Sara Uglotti (published in the US by Page Street Kids) can be ordered in via Unity Books Wellington and Auckland or ordered online from Barnes & Noble.